withdrawal symptoms

20Jun06

or am i back in remission?

through the stupor of antishstamines and paracetamol, dreams still manage to creep in. dreams of that which was and that which could have been. dreams of that which i couldn’t dare to dream. of luminous eyes and mocha skin and silken hair and sudden smiles.

muddat huee is haadsa – e – ishq ko laikin
ab tak hai teray dil kay dharaknay ki sada yaad

why does a memory of that which never was haunt me so? why does forgotten loyalty prevent me from moving on? why does every face i see become just the face i want to see? why does life not allow for a second chance? why does rage still point fingers at you? why do the all my dreams, controlled and uncontrolled, still feature you in them? till when will the hope of a simple how’re you doing continue to be my lifeline? when wil i really really get up and move on?

kahoon kis se mein ke kiya hai
shab-e-gham buree bala hai
mujhe kya bura tha marna –
agar eik baar hota

i don’t blame you, you know. it wasn’t your fault i fell so hard. have a happy life. and pray that i do too – someday.

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2 Responses to “withdrawal symptoms”

  1. very dreamy and beautiful…u’ll get there in the end…sumhow

  2. Koi mere dil se poochhe tere teer-e-neem kash ko,
    Ye khalish kahaan se hoti, jo jigar ke paar hota….
    & then sum1 says (not sure its faiz)

    “hua jo teer-e-nazar, neem kash to kya haasil,
    mazaa to jab hai ke seene ke aar paar chale…..

    & the struggle continues:)


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